My Journey to Becoming a Wantrepreneur

Where am I now? It’s kind of nice my life journey is being recorded and the lessons I am learning so I don’t forget them.  This was never the intention, this was going to be cool as blog.  The second, the much cooler blog from the other one I started with reviews.  Instead, its turned to this, but I quite like finding this again every few months or years.

So I quit my job, but it’s a few years since and I went freelance, and now I am trying to start a business.  I want to be a business owner.  Why you ask?  Where did this come from?  Here are all my reasons, as honest as the sun that promises to come up every day (does that even make sense)?

  • I wanted to create something
  • I caught the bug, yes there is a bug where you want to be a founder, you want to build something to be proud of
  • I want a family and kids. I want my own but I would love to adopt and foster.  Naturally, I’m good with children but I think that stems from the fact I happy to entertain their questions.  I don’t treat kids like kids, I talk to them like I would to a lot of people.  But anyways, I feel as I am good with kids, and in my life path I have met children from some really sad circumstances, that is a bit of a calling.
  • Flexibility for the above
  • Money, more like freedom. I am not driven by designer brands or wealthy status, but comfort would be nice and ability to do something
  • No.  That’s not correct.  Achieving something… yes that is closer

Anyways I have been on this journey for almost a year now, and I need to speed it up and do better

My new issues are:

  • Time management
  • Not feeling lonely
  • Having money

But am I glad I quit?  Hell Yes.  Best decision.  I have changed so much – I actually feel like I am changing every day.  It’s great but at the same time I have no idea who I am anymore, I can’t keep up.  It is exhausting.

I went from afraid to fail to live that feeling every day – I have normalised the feeling of being afraid to fail.  I am kind of proud of myself.  I think this helped.

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And if it goes wrong.  Well, it’s fine, I have me, we will work on something else.  The trick is, I can’t lose my identity in this, and sometimes it feels like it is slipping.  The penalty would be too high.  So note to self: Keep ‘you’ separate. I don’t know how to do that.

Thanks for reading- the 3 random people who came on here accidently. Have a sweet day!

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Our biggest problem in life is thinking we shouldn’t have problems

I completely forgot about this blog – now reading it through I can see all the frustration unravel over time, but in a weird way I can also see how my beliefs were slowly building, and I was laying the ground work.

I guess I went from one extreme to another.

I only discovered Tony Robins in the last year (I know where have I been).  And he said the title of this post.  ‘Our biggest problem in life is thinking we shouldn’t have problems’.  Life is not a holiday park, so as soon as you accept there will always be problems and challenges, you will feel better. It is in a way one of the major terms and conditions which come with living, and the one you need to come to terms with.  Guarantee when you do, you will be that bit more content.

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The best thing you can do in life to help, is equip yourself, especially when you are doing well/ flying in heels.  Here are a couple of things I have taken on over the last 2 years which may be useful:

Surround yourself with the people you want to be like.  If you want to be a good cook, make friends with cooks.  If you want to be smart, surround yourself with people who are always studying.  An entrepreneur, then you need to have friends in your life who are doing this also and successfully.  The same applies to personal traits, if you want to be happy, find happy people and go where they go.  Creative, well google 20 places for creative inspiration in your city, and see what comes up.

Habbit Tracker: I am new at this, but I have a habit tracker which I need to get better at completing.  I have listed items/ activities/ actions I want to monitor each day  to help make them more natural to me.  Mine include things like pray, 30 mins exercise, drink coconut water. But some people have meditation, or call a family member, or go for a walk.  I also have 15 minutes hard core tidy up- slightly neglected.

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Amazing template here 

Outlets for interests:  So I recently joined the Meet Up bandwagon.  But through that I have met some amazing people I would never have done otherwise.  I am also getting into skill share and lucky enough to have Google Campus London near by which is great for free talks.   This way I am helping my interests and passions grow.  You can do this online too, via a blog, or various Instagram accounts for different interests.    Completely up to you. Have a side thing.  Need inspiration, check out skill share or eventbrite, and flick through until something grabs you.

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Something to look forward to: Each month, or every two months try and have something to look forward to.  This could be a holiday, an event, something you will buy yourself. A catch up with a friend. Decide what it is before and if there are any steps you need to take before getting it.

Ask yourself, what good have I done today, this week, this month: If you can, I believe you should give back.

It can be just buying someone a cup of tea who is homeless, to volunteering at a soup kitchen. I am toying with idea of being a mentor for youth offenders.  Whatever it is, ry and bring an element of consistency to it.  So I will visit the soup kitchen for half a day on a sunday every 6 weeks.

All of this at once, I know sounds like a lot, and it is but, some times a few small steps can help change perspective.  Take it slowly, its part trial and error.  The important thing is to keep equipping yourself.

In some ways I think this is a note to myself in the future or when I next get stuck.

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Brussels & Bruge- Europe’s secret

In Mid-August I visited Brussels and Bruge for a holiday break from London by EuroStar.  I have never been to either before and absolutely loved it.  Nice chilled city break! Bruge reminded me of the movie Shrek where happily “Ever After Land” is – with its flags and tall building, canals and cobbled streets, the city looks surreal as if it has been pulled out from a fairy tale.

Famous for its gorgeous rich and high in coco chocolate, Bruge has over 50 chocolate shops. It also is an incredibly safe feeling city.  If you are looking to visit Brussels in the summer in 2016/18 I suggest you go during the flower carpet which takes place every 2 years in August for 3 days.  The one thing to note is both places can get rainy – so good shoes and a strong umbrella is a must!  Before booking my holiday I went online to find some ideas on what to do and get a sense of the place.  There wasn’t a lot on these destinations so thought I would share some of the highlights from my trip!

EuroStar allows you to visit any city on your return or departure ticket, so first stop was Bruge:

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Center of Bruge

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Gorgeous waffles, a must in Belgium. Vary quite a bit in price.

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Take a boat ride in Bruge

 

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Scene from film In Bruge

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When lost – look for the bell tower. This goes off all the time in the day! 🙂

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Just loved the clock collection— still on the boat

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Quite cool, and different- label your house from the outside?

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Visited chocolate museum in Bruge… watched a demonstration

 

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Made from beautiful rich coco

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Hire a bike and just keep riding- rode all the way to some windmills

We then took the train to Brussels….

 

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Manneken Pis!

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Beautiful chocolate

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Hot chocolate – yum!

 

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Instead of graffiti- comic art!

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Recommend visiting the palace if you go in the summer as it is free and open to the public

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Lots of comic art

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At the comic museum

 

Each road sign is in French and Flemmish!

Each road sign is in French and Flemmish!

Near the palace...

Near the palace…

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Even a trip the EC! p.s. further than you think from the Palace!

 

The best bit… The flower carpet…

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Step 1

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Placing the petals

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Opening ceremony at night!

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Carpet in its glory!

Any travel questions drop me a note and will do my best to answer! x

 

The benefits of active charity work

I have always wanted to do charity work, I have installed the belief into myself that we need to make the world a better place otherwise what is the point of us being born and living here.  In a work place, or team you want someone who contributes and helps you advance.  Contribution to planet earth can vary, maybe your birth alone made people smile and live better…well done job done.  Perhaps you campaign about injustices, or make everyone laugh.  Your contribution can vary, but at the end, If I am asked what did you contribute and did you leave this world in a better state, I want to say yes.

This isn’t about legacy, although only in 2012 during the Olympics I realised that as you get older you slowly start think about legacy…hadn’t even considered that before. With the objective clear, I want to help people the way that I can and plays to my strengths.

Looking at my posts below, you can see the frustration.  I hate reading them, and have avoided deleting them.  But one of the things which helped me was doing an activity completely removed to my daily life.  I went to the other-side of the world, met lots of people I do not know and know nothing about me solo, worked really hard on something I hadn’t worked on before.  Met people in completely different circumstances to mine.  When I returned to the UK, everything became clear.  Obviously everyone has their own experience, but if you feel like I did, maybe put all your effort into something removed from your daily life and give yourself a break from your daily challenges and see how you live under different circumstances.

It’s like you are stripped back just to you! I understand this isn’t an option for everyone but if some how you need that lift, and can make it happen I recommend that as a good starter.

Much love!

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Why I quit my job….with nothing else lined up

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It has been a really long time since I wrote here and things have changed quite a bit since.  The biggest changes took place a few months ago, right after my 26th birthday.  I think 26 is a much better age than 24.  You are no longer concerned by the fact you are in your mid-20s and things are changing around you super fast, you are more comfortable in your own skin and you have embraced the fact that you are an adult!  Or maybe this just applies to me!

After I turned 26 I knew I needed to do something more with my life, so I searched online for volunteering opportunities, new jobs, events I could support- just something new and exciting to immerse myself in.  Then one night I decided to write all my key interests into Google and the search resulted in what can only be described as a miracle- my dream opportunity appeared.  I applied- went to Rio and worked with street children in a communications role for two weeks! It was amazing!!

The volunteering experience itself deserves a post dedicated to itself but it is when I came back it really hit me that there is a bigger picture. I have been in many ways working towards being afraid of failure.  I have seen a few people/friends near my age pass away over the years and as a result I am always comparing myself.  It isn’t great- but I look at my life- what I am doing.  If it was me who had gone instead would I be happy to go being who I am and having done what I have today. The answer is always “no”.

After my time away I came back and just really listened to my heart and it was telling me its time for a change.  Sometimes the best thing you can do is the thing that makes you feel most uncomfortable.  You learn and grow more as a person when you do..so 3 days later i did quit my job.  I am fortunate in the sense that I have some money I have saved which can get me through a period of unemployment – for a short while at least!!  After having handed in my resignation, sitting at my desk- sheer panic would spread across my face and I would fill with regret.  So many times I have wanted to go to HR and say- I am sorry – I really do not want to leave. Knowing that you might be moving on to weeks or even months of sitting on the couch getting fatter, lazier as you watch Jeremy Kyle isn’t that motivating, and pretty scary to be honest.  I have been on job seekers allowance and I am not doing that again either!!

What if my next job makes me feel terrible?  What if the hours are longer? What if the people do not like me?  I had trouble listing why I was leaving my current company.  It;s  a nice office… hours are flexible although long, I have friends…the company does great work……  Yes- I was consumed with these thoughts.  I did a test prior to my volunteering experience.  Each morning at the end of the working day I marked whether I feel I should stay or go.  The mornings were almost always telling me to go.  Evenings were mixed.

But I did it – I handed it in- and this is my last week now at work.  I am feeling excited!!  I have no idea what is next but that is nice, it is a new chapter of my life.  A chance for me to better myself, personally and professionally.  I have been in my company for over 3 and half years.  It was my first real place of work (career wise) and I know for me to be who I want to be I need a new experience and a new source of inspiration.  It was good to me, but it is time to move forwards.

In many ways you are born a blank canvas- perhaps you have limited paint colours to choose from at times.  But it is up to you what gets painted.  My painting hasn’t progressed much recently, infact it is very dry and looks like it is finished.  Hopefully this will add something new.  I’ll keep you posted on this.  I am not saying – quit your job! But if you do – go in with an open mind.  The urge to undo your resignation can be pretty strong.  Just be sure, do the same test I did.  Even go away for a week and do an activity different like working with kids, cooking course, climbing a mountain.  Sometimes new scenery helps to clear the mind.  It isn’t easy and we will see just how this decision unfolds, but just make sure you are good to yourself as you need to be able to answer to your older self later in life.

To put it simply- I have tried working in my current job for ahwile and it isnt working for me, so now I will try not working in my current job and give that a go

Just making change for the sake of change!

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Truth hurts

At some point in life I became a chicken.  This is the cold truth.  I used to be so lively, loud-ish and spontaneous.  I still come across spontaneous, people have now realized I have low self-esteem and I think people from my youth look at me like… I thought you would be more by now.  This isn’t paranoia.  This is the truth and it is obvious.  I have been ignoring this cold fact for awhile.  No one wants to feel like a failure – and no one wants to feel like they have spineless.

There are times in my life where I decided to bare and grin.  Some people would say that makes you a strong character- and in some circumstances it does.  But it what I always do.  Each time,  I wonder why.  I think it is is the fear of the unfamiliar.  I’d rather be aware of the crap I am facing then not know what is ahead.  That kind of boils down to a need to control.  When I do mini spontaneous things I know they are random but I feel they are in my control remit.

  • I should have left uni and gone elsewhere
  • I should have moved accommodation at uni
  • I should have left high school before 6 form
  • I should have quit my job a year a go
  • I should have left home
  • I should have pushed my dating life more

You would never think to look at me I am this fearful. i shoulda, woulda coulda…. ANNOYING!

Yet I do nothing.  Its like there are invisible ropes which are locking me in.  After this epiphany I do nothing.  What is wrong here – with me? Do something  – I scream! have some change do something.

I sound a little crazy, but I am not much.  I am actually really intuitive.  I see disaster coming and pick up on signs early- but decide to watch them play out.  Let me say this- I don’t regret picking my university- I just regret doing nothing and staying there.

A few quotes have struck me

“The biggest failure you can have in life is making the mistake of never trying at all.”

“If we spend our time with regrets over yesterday, and worries over what might happen tomorrow, we have no today in which to live.”

I need help! I know what I should do – I don’t know why I do not.

 

And…. hit Publish…

 

New Website to Make Poor Decision-making a Thing of the Past!

Sometimes making a decision can be really tricky, especially when you find yourself constantly re-assessing the pros and cons and the impact it this decision could have on your life.  Recently Channel 4 (UK) launched a TV program called The Audience.  The Audience is a reality TV show where a member of the public is facing a tough decision in their life – it could be anything from quitting a job, sending a child to live with her father for a better life.  To help them come to an answer on what to do – they are provided with 40 strangers who hear the whole story , follow them around in their lives and then after a week they will discuss amongst themselves the situation – giving the decision maker a unanimous answer as to what they think the person should do.  Interesting idea – and a great TV watch!

Research by GSK shows that – well the UK is not in the top 10 happiest places to live.  When people make poor decisions or feel unfulfilled  it can lead to regret and sadness.

Today I came across a tweet advertising a new website called Sentio Search.  What is it all about?  Well here the concept is simple- the internet is meant to make life easier for us- but in some ways it is not. Sentio Search is a website created to help you make better decisions and achieve greater happiness in life. They do this by something they call surrogation-  based on the actual experiences of others they convert the hindsight of similar people into foresight to help you get the answer you need.

Here is the trailer video – it is quite long so below are the short notes.

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They state that the average Joe makes….

  • 2 decisions every minute
  • 3000 decisions every day
  • 88 million decisions in their lifetime

Statistics show….

  • People are now less happy than they were in the 70’s
  • 78% of people believe regret is avoidable
  • People spend 44 minutes a week dwelling on regret

On the video – Sentio  believe that we all want the decisions we make to maximise our own happiness… I’m not too sure about that – but anyways I think it will be interesting to watch how people take to this.  If you are having a tough time- why not try it??  Let me know if you do – I might give it a go too.

But stepping away from the internet – decisions mean impact on your life and the future can be scary in a way.  But sometimes mistakes are going to be made – and as corny as it sounds- you just need learn from them.  On the other hand change can be positive and without change- things get boring.  That’s what I think anyways!